it goes like— it hurts. you can’t hear me through the gasping breaths, and so you ask “what?” “it hurts.” but i can’t hear me through my beating heart. and i start to believe that it wouldn’t be so bad if it didn’t beat anymore. my mother tells me that happiness is […]
Author: HeyitsTay
Love letter to the girl with the broken heart
It has or will happen to us all at least once (and most, more than once, if we are so lucky) in our lives, and it’s a pain that can’t be replicated— further, that no one would ever wish to replicate. To hear that it will be okay is the biggest insult of all, and […]
She Asked Me How I Felt
In a little, sterile, white-walled hospital room. I could feel the needle inside of my vein Keeping me hydrated, alive. The drowsiness of the overdose Clouded my ability to make sense of the question. And so, I wondered if she meant the IV in my arm. “It hurts like a bitch,” I reported, exhausted, […]
January Gratitude Log
January began a new decade and with it came a lot of excitement and energy. New Year’s Eve felt even more promising than usual, with everyone holding tight to his/ her resolutions, determined to make 2020 a wonderful year… myself included. And as per the usual unpredictability of life, I couldn’t have predicted how the […]
Questions to Ask
*A poem of frustration written shortly after the shooting at Borderline Bar & Grill in Thousand Oaks, CA, a place that I’d frequented and loved. Where were you that day— The day of the shooting? Did you have the week off for vacation? And how can the creator of the world take vacations? Why didn’t […]
Guest Writer Jesse Haynes – Disconnecting to Reconnect
Car rides with friends and family can be valuable opportunities to catch up or conversation. Driving by yourself can be just as important: it’s an opportunity to think. It’s nice to have the radio off and some peace and quiet—just you, your thoughts, and the open road. But, whether you’re riding solo or with a […]
Who Would You Like To Be Today?
I can’t decide. And they say it’s normal for 23. Sometimes, I think I’d like to spend my days in court, bringing social justice to a corrupt world. Making a difference, though, I admit, there are several ways to make a difference that don’t involve 3 years of debt and torturous schooling. Sometimes, […]
A Writer’s Solitude
There’s something lonely about being a writer. There’s beauty in the loneliness just as there’s a bit of beauty to most everything in life. The solitude of a writer is chosen by the individual. We make the choice to either be the extrovert, spending our moments in live conversation with others in the world, […]
Heart Murmur
There she sat beside me in class Twitching. The professor spoke But all I could hear was the sound of her Twitching. A moment of stillness and then the motion of her Twitch. A sudden movement Interrupted by calmness, Immobility. I began to count the seconds between each Twitch. One. Two. Three. Four. Twitch. Others […]
Your Diet Doesn’t Have to be Complicated
Let me rephrase: Your diet shouldn’t be complicated. Let’s start with this: What do all the current fad diets have in common? SO MANY RULES Now, you may be thinking that I’m a bit of a hypocrite for suggesting this when I’m a vegan myself. Let me take a moment to convince you otherwise. I don’t […]